Doing my best

Today was a day of  feeling like I am just managing  to stay afloat, and certain people making me feel like I am not doing anything in the hopes to find a new job, funny how you can have really supportive people in your life and then others that seem to like knocking you when you are down, to these people I say stuff you,  I am doing my best and when that job comes along I will be shoving it in your face and I bet you will all of a sudden be on my side again.

This morning was great we saw a few people we haven't seen for ages it was so nice to see them although it brief it was nice to see them seeing those people make you realise how lucky you really are to have people in your life, also another good thing today was bargain hunting clothes for my son and also got a bargain for my daughter.

Today I am grateful for bargains, staying a float and knowing trusting that this is only short term .

                

Frustrated

Ok so today was a day of complete frustration, I am with 3 agencies I have had one interview, I was also waiting to hear from 3 other jobs from these agencies, one rung me to say there has been a hold up of at least another week, the other one I had to ring as I hadn't heard anything, only to be told I wasn't experienced enough, still waiting on the 3rd one, then the interview I had this week I got the you made the last 2, but I'm sorry you haven't been successful, so I asked him why I missed out he said we knew the other applicant, so yah for me but it really is who you know and not what. I have 2 more interviews next week but to be honest it is very hard to stay positive, I have had some amazing people still sending me messages of stay positive and to you all I am so thankful, the interview in Thursday is at a place next to where my dad worked 20 years ago, so I am taking that as a sign.

So after watching my son play netball I came home and exercised my frustration out, but I was still pissed so the next thing was mow the lawn, stupid as it is winter but totally frustrated, so the final thing today was I decided to  attack some of the bushes in the garden best hour and a half ever, I would  loved to have carried on but I'm  not sure there would of been much bush left, it got dark and I had no room in the bins.

So another week of unemployment beckons but positive thoughts as I have 2 interviews next week and lotto is looking fantastic tomorrow

Today I'm grateful for friends checking on me and getting to rid some of my frustrations on the garden 

 

                        

Enjoying time

I am finding that trusting the journey is giving me so much more time to enjoy doing what I can not normally find time for, although I am feeling very positive that my new chapter is just around the corner, I am enjoying the fact that I can go and see my kids doing things in school time that I have been unable to do while working, I have enjoyed watching my son play his winter sports, I am enjoying he fact that I can also see how his dance is coming along with dancing like the starts for school, he is also running the school assembly tomorrow with four other kids but the fact that I can go and watch him is pretty cool, I am also enjoying the fact that I can do my exercise during the day, I can also get dinner ready nice and early, today we had parent teacher meetings for my daughter tonight and I am very proud of her with all the troubles that she has had this year and previous years it it is so so lovely to hear that she is doing well.

So with all this good stuff gong on I am feeling great, I have another couple of interviews next week, the interviews I have had although it's great to have the experience nothing has felt like it was right for me, so hear is hoping one of next weeks interviews brings me what I am spending all my energy on and a new job.  

Today I am grateful for time, patience and enjoying this precious time before I am back at work

      

Another great day

Today started with physio and she finally said I could do some exercise (now to control what I do) so that was a great start to the day, then I got to meet a friend for a coffee I always love meeting this friend as she makes me feels normal, you sometimes wonder if you are the only one that has issues with things not going the right way, but seeing her today was great, the best part about today was finally getting back into some exercise although it wasn't as full on as I like it felt great it's amazing how much it makes you feel better, 

I have now also,decided that it's time to get ready for my 40th next year, not that I am planning on having a party but I want to feel fab at 40, so healthy eating, drinking heaps of water and exercising is my aim, and I figure that the only thing missing now is the job but I know it's coming, so I'm going to say that this first 6 months of this year has been pretty crap, but I'm so excited for the next 6 months of this year.

I also want to say a big thank you to everyone who is sending me messages, texting me and generally caring about me and helping me if they hear if any jobs going, you have no idea how much it is appreciated.

So today I am grateful for

New opportunities and having fabulous people in my life 

     

Keeping positive

Today was a good day, nothing super crazy happened but just a good day, a certain feeling of exciting change is coming and by the end of this week I'm hoping for super news. 

It's been an interesting ride the last few weeks but I'm excited for the next ride, and where it is going to take me. It's funny how you think you life is just normal but it's not until you are telling complete strangers things that have gone on over the last few years that you relise it's not normal, and what we have gone thru would of broken many, then they say to you how do you do it, like I said to this person you do what you do and will continue to until you get what you want.

So I say bring on my new challenge and exciting times, I'm ready 

 

Today I'm grateful 

For opportunities and following my heart  

 

Challenging

It has been a couple of weeks since I last posted, so I am going to get back in to it

The main priority at the mo is for me to find a job I have had a couple of interviews but it obviously hasn't been the right path for me to go, I have now signed up with several agencies have done a bit of testing, have applied for umpteen jobs, I am trusting the process and hopefully this week will see me back employed, the good thing out of this is I have been able to catch up with many over due friend catch ups, I have been able to watch my son at sport and his dancing, and also those jobs that you just never seem time to find to do I have done this, I have also had a 3 week well overdue break, 

Inhave said to my hubby that we are going to be celebrating me and my new position at the end of this week. this process has also made me really appreciate all the great friends who are checking up on me and so many people also telling me about positions that are available, it has also made me realise that there are some people that were in my life that really don't care about me, I should be hurt by these people as I thought they were my friends but it has made me realise just how self centred and shallow some people can be, these people will never see me again and I can honestly say I feel so much lighter in the fact that they can't bring me down any more 

So my new chapter is going to start this week and I am super excited about what lay ahead for me, new challenges and new friends and of course my very supportive friends and family, my husband had been amazing and I really am very lucky to be married to him

So if ya don't hear from me your loss not mine 

Have a fab rest of the day and watch out for my next post 

 

Hanging in there

So I haven't blogged as I just haven't had anything to say, (that's a first I hear some of you say) so I lost my job 2 weeks ago and it has been very hard to get a chance let alone an interview, I have  2 interviews with another one tomorrow,  I have a lot of support around me from friends and family telling it's all going to work out, I know it will work out, and I know my universe is aligning so that my perfect job is coming to me,  I need to be patient I get it but some sign would be nice.

On the plus side I have certainly been given a lot of triple numbers and 11.11, I was in the car today and it was 11 degrees at 11.11 how freaky is this and I was typing this looked at the time 11.11

Today I'm greatful for 

Having a car to take me to interviews

My parents for letting me have a hot shower there this morning

Taking chances 

  

Ups and downs

So 1.5 weeks down of being unemployed and although I have manage to fill my days in I ready to get back into the work force but that is a challenge in its self I have applied for many jobs and only met agencies, yesterday I got a phone call from yet another agency who wanted to meet me about a job, it wasn't exactly where I wanted to be travelling too every day but I'm sure it would of worked with the support of my family with kids it would of been fine, I dropped my son off to school got back home and  the agency had said that the job had been taken down because they wanted to employ another electrician and not an administrator, I had also emailed the agency that I saw last week to see what was going on with the job that they had seen me about and they too had decided to keep it in house, so blow after blow after blow. I was helping at friend today look after her shop.  It's great that I can help people out but come on its my turn to get some help. I did however get a phone call for a job that I'm super keen to try so I have an interview with them on Tuesday, so it's not like I'm sitting on my arse not doing anything, but I feel like I'm banging my head against a wall. I am being told stay positive it will all work out, I'm thinking lotto, is looking great as I feel I have as much chance winning 1st division as I do in getting a job at the mo.

Things totally happen for a reason and those jobs didn't work out for a reason. I'm still very excited about the new journey and I will have a job soon, and I will enjoy it and I will look back at this and see a positive .  I will also be screaming at the excitement of this new job and when I do watch out 

Today I'm greatful for 

Chances

Helping out friends

Having amazing support from my family 

 

Not feeling it

So I haven't much felt like blogging lately,  I have applied for so many jobs but to no avail, I am meeting someone next Wednesday but I have really set my goals on one particularly job, I can totally see me doing this job but I'm waiting for someone to contact me I have ask many times and have pictured myself doing this well before I was told about it,  

I know things take time, and I do keep getting signs that I'm on the right track and I know that I need to be patient but I'm officially over having nothing to go to everyday, I have enjoyed spending a bit  of extra time with the kids, but ready to start my new, exciting journey 

Have a fab day everybody 

Today I am grateful for

Having a warm house 

Meeting friends 

And receiving signs that I'm on the right track