Life is a changing

So next yeah is my big 4 oh!!!!!!!! I have had Heath issues and injuries this year but it is safe to say that things are definitely on the up, work is fab home life is great, and now starting to feel like I can concentrate on me for a bit, big changes are coming and all in a great way, I can honestly say next year is going to be flippin fantastic, I started another journey last week and I feel fully committed to this one and looking forward to my journey, I had someone say to me the other day that I'm lovely the way I am and not to focus on this too much, I'm still me, but I'm not happy with me, so changes coming and totally looking forward to it, I have an amazing hubby and family who I know will support me, so bring on the new year 

But this is about me being happy for me so watch this space 

  

Uncertainty

It's been a while since I blogged but given the event of this week I feel the need to write again. The earthquake we had on Monday morning has really knocked me again, after really starting to feel ok about life and being able to do normal things again I now feel like I am at square one, needing to know exactly where my family are and should anything happen knowing exactly who will get to our kids, living like this is insane, and trying we were just talking about our Christmas vacation on Sunday night we were going to go to, Kaikoura up to Picton and really looking forward to getting away for a few days, well Monday morning changed all that, I wish that i could bring myself to,wanting to go up to kaikoura but I really don't want to put my kids thru all that again. I am totally feeling for what the top,of the South Island is going thru and after being there for myself a few years back it is going to be a horrendous few months, 

Being evacuated at 130am Monday and driving away from my house not knowing if we would have ever come back was not a nice feeling, we were very fortunate that a friend of ours offered us to go to her house, I am for ever grateful to her, when we were driving over there I rang my parents and told them to get out also told them to meet me at my friends house, all was going well until my mum rung me and said that their car wouldn't start, my heart sank, my hubby was amazing he said he would go back and get them, that was a horrible feeling also knowing that my husband was driving back to somewhere where we we told to get out, I am thankful to my inlaws as they went and got them and hubby then brought them over to where I was. To have my hubby kids and parents all safe certainly was a relief. Them it was just a waiting game until we were allowed home which thankfully came about 930am.

Looking at th devastation around kaikoura is heartbreaking, but one thing that amazes me in these situations is the way that everyone wants to help, people are incredible, seeing that amazing amount of stuff being sent up to kaikoura is amazing and what a relief it will be for them to receive some well needed supplies.

Of course not everyone thinks of others, like the dairy owner charging $10 for a dozen eggs is just greedy and disgusting, I have also,come across a couple of people who obviously have not been thru such a disaster and fully believe that they are the most important people and that the world revolves around them and when they say jump,your meant to say how high, to these people I say don't be such selfish pricks and be patient, and maybe help these people who lives  have been turned upside down and stop thinking of yourself, luckily there is only a few people like that, most people are totally feeling for the quake stricken areas which is great, I even had someone who I deal with thru work (from dunedin) ring me the other day to see how I was doing so that was really cool.

I know this post isn't my usual positive stuff but I really felt the need to write this down to help me feel better

I am of course so thankful for having great people in my life and so grateful for a roof over my head,  running water and a warm bed 

Keep safe everyone 

      F

Happy happy

With my foot healing I'm feeling great in the fact that I'm actually able to do some things I haven't been able to do for ages, I have picked up a golf club and had a hit, I have also started the 28 day plank challenge, I was unable to go for a walk today had a few things to do at lunch and after work so once the fan damily went to bed I basically walked on the he spot and did squats for a whole episode of game of thrones, I feel like I have got my mojo back and I'm excited for a better heathy me, it's amazing at how great I feel for getting back in to my exercise, although I'm still a long way off from where I want to be but hey small steps, positive thinking, believing and it's all looking great 

Goals goals and goals bring it on  

             

What a day

I'm  very lucky to have my hubby, kids my family and friends in my life, I'm also very lucky that my son is very much in touch with hit spiritual side so when mind body and spirit show  comes to my home town this is the one date that we do together, I got to see a friend there in one of the stalls that I haven't seen for a few months, it was so nice to see her and have a catch up, funny how things happen. My son is so open to try new things, I don't force anything on him and its up to him whether he joins. Some of the things we have done in the past is tarot cards, reflexology, readings, so today was another new experience we did numerology and got a chakras in check, he loves his  crystals    and going to the crystal people stall is his absolute must and first thing that we always do and today was no different I love watching him at this stall, his  crystal  collection is getting bigger.

After the show we had cupcakes and a drink, was a really nice morning. We then went and caught up with my friend and her kids, this friend has been in my life for very long time and I class her as my big sister we try and catch up once a month I love this so I was very excited for our catch up but unfortunately my son was jumping on their tramp and fell very awkwardly and we then got to spend another couple of quality hours together at after hours lucky it was just a sprain so in a few days he will be back to normal.

So today was a day of good, so happy that his foot was only a sprain always looking at the postive side of any situation 

So positive thoughts and abundance is my thinking 

  

More goals

Day 5 of exercise today saw me extending my walk and even doing a little bit of running, I must admit being able to get back into my exercise is great it's certainly giving me a lot more energy and I look forward to getting home from work, putting on my sneakers on heading out the door, listening to my sounds, I'm looking forward to seeing the results still a long way to go but hey small steps, looking forward to having an exercise buddy too hopefully, I have a very long way to get to the level of this person but the one good thing at having someone who is better at something than you is that you can strive to be just like that person, and although I'm dear say it 15 years older than this person, I will never be as good as this person I'm going to be as good as I can be, and I will have fun spending time with them and getting a better healthy me whilst doing it.

Turning the big 4-oh next year I'm going to be a fab forty and not a frumpy 40, so bring on the warmer weather where there is going to be salads and hopefully a lot more running (although I may have to invest in some new runners, just as well I know a good place to go for good shoes)

Hard to believe we are almost in October for a year that feels like it has dragged, it's going super quick.

    

  

Positive

I was complimented today about all my positive posts really made me feel great it really is true what you put out into the world you receive back and the more you talk to people the better you feel, some people have trouble believing that they as a person can change the way people think, but the more people I talk to makes me relise just how many people fully believe in and give more positive thoughts out to the world,  makes me feel happy knowing there are so many postive people out there, and I'm very lucky to know a few of them and call them my friend, 

I was out walking again tonight and had the biggest smile on my face walking in the rain, with my dog, I'm sure people,must of wondered what I was on, but loving walking and turning my sounds on and just being in my own wee world, 

  

Terrific Tuesday

Feeling like things are so turning out for the better, After being told off numerous times for working thru my lunch I am now trying to get a walk in at lunch time yesterday I did 2kms in 20 mins manage to increase that to 2.5 today, had my 2nd shockwave treatment today got home then took puppy out for a walk, I finally feel that at work I am a bit more helpful in that I can work out my own problems, instead of ringing my manger numerous times a day it's only a couple of times a day (at the mo) but I also recall things now too where a month ago i couldn't remember anything but people ask me questions about orders or something else and I actually know the answers, it certainly has been a very big learning curve for me not knowing a dam thing about cables to actually understanding what people are asking, next thing is leaning the codes, but I think that is going to take a very long time, it's hard to believe is has been almost 3 months and I can honestly say I'm glad that I never looked back as I'm loving it, 

Life looks great from health to family to work to friends, looking forward to the next 12 weeks of this year with a healthy fitter me 

                  

Feeling great

Day 1 of better being today, after my test on my foot for 6kms yesterday thought I would do the same again today and it feels great again round two tomorrow of the shockwave treatment and if my foot feels great after 1 treatment I'm certainly excited about what it's going to be like after 2 

The golf clubs are coming out of retirement next week for a game so this will also be yet another good challenge for said foot,

Feeling positive on a lot of stuff in my life at the moment,  fully believe what you put out into the universe comes back ten fold, so positive positive postitive vibes from me  

                

Goals

I have decided that I need to reset my goals, one of my goals is to def get my foot sorted so today I decided to test it a wee bit so first on the agenda was to extend my walk I manage to get it out to 6kms and although it was a lot  slowly than normal I did it, loving daylight savings as that extra hour of light is great, I was really set on being away for my birthday next year but after crunching numbers tonight it really is going to be hard, there is another reason why I need to go next year as its really the last year that I could take my kids out of school, for a family holiday,  and although I may not be away for my birthday I'm setting my hopes in maybe this time next year it maybe possible, I am not giving up on the idea yet as I still believe if you ask and believe you will receive, my 3rd goal is to be at a weight that I'm happy with so starting tomorrow I'm back to getting these 3 goals back on track, so once again watch this space. 

           

Funny day

So today was a nice day, I got a text from a friend who I haven't seen in ages, (but another one of those friends that you don't see forever and you can talk like you just saw each other yesterday) we always said that as the kids get older it will be easier to catch up truth is it's harder, any how she has been going thru a very hard time and can now just talk about it, I felt terrible that I didn't know what she has been going thru but also very lucky that she came over to tell me face to face, it's the first I have had a friend go thuu something like this and I feel for her, but she knows that we are here for her and her kids and is definitely not going to be another 6 months before I see her, already booked at least one day in the next 6 weeks for a catch up.

I am even more blessed to have friends like her in my life, we have certainly always supported each other in tough times and  I will be there again for her thru this. I know she has got amazing support around her and I hope I can be part of that for her. 

                  

Yah it's Friday

Today was another great day nothing spectacular happened but just being happy is definitely a good thing. It was loud shirt today and this is one of 2 charities that I will always support, my loud shirt made people smile so that made me feel good, it was a busy day today and the last thing I felt like doing was going out for tea, but a friend of mine is getting married tomorrow and we are unable to attend her wedding but I'm certainly happy I went out for dinner, was so exciting to hear the details of her special day, I know that this friend has had a very tough few years and I'm certainly very lucky to call her my friend. And I know she is going to be an amazing bride and have a fab day and I look forward to catching up with her when she gets back from her honeymoon. Funny how people in your life can be around for years and not see them for a while but you still feel like you spoke to them just yesterday, and that will always be the case, I'm very lucky that I have many friends like that, and I look forward to catching up with them all

                         

It's all good

I thought I would have nothing to write about today but today I'm grateful,for having my family back together, my son has been at camp for the last 3 days and although I knew he would fine but  you still can't help but worry about them, he had a blast like I knew he would but came home absolutely shattered. It was so lovely he gave me the biggest cuddle when he saw me. Made my day 😀Funny how as a parent sometimes you just wish for some peace and quiet yet the minute you get that peace and quiet you can't wait to have the noise back. 

I am just in general really happy at the mo, loving life, loving my foot getting better day by day (looking forward to that walk up Rapaki. sometime soon) loving my job, loving that it's Friday tomorrow, bring on the weekend 

           

Feeling happy

I am not sure if it's being happy with life or my foot not hurting any where as much after one lot of treatment (after 9 months of agony) catching up with a friend ( who I haven't seen in almost three months), or having people actual checking on me making sure I'm alright, it has been a fantastic day today.

To have people checking on me and taking time out of their busy day to just have a chat with me, makes me feel pretty good, I got told today I sounded young, (made my day) I think the person I was speaking too was a little bit surprised when I said I have a teenage daughter and 10 year old son, and been married for almost 16 years, what should have been a quick phone call ended up being 10 mins, so this person taking time out of their day was petty cool, also getting to catch up with a friend today at lunch was great,  I knew half an hour wasn't going to be long enough the time flew but we already have another  date set for another catch up (can't wait). 

I love hearing what people think of my blog, and although I sometimes think people don't really want to hear what I have to say I couldn't be further from the truth, people say I'm an inspiration but I think it's just me clearing my thoughts, but thank you for taking the time out of your day to read my thoughts.

  

 

Feeling hopeful

Today I had my specialist appointment for my foot, talking to the specialist I am feeling very hopeful,that my life is going to return back to normal well as normal as normal is, I had this treatment on my foot today he reckons it's going to take 5 sessions once a week for the next 5 weeks, and although I felt like my foot was on fire this morning after the treatment it actually feels quite good, I am hopeful,that the game of golf that I will be playing for work in a couple of weeks it's going to feel pretty good, yah 

Work is still fantastic although today was busy I certainly wouldn't have it any other way, it's hard to believe I have been there almost 3 months. What a crazy year it has been but loving life. amd totally looking forward to what my future holds 

   

Back into it

Oh my gosh where is the time going, I can not believe we are just about in October, daylight savings  starts this weekend ready for summer which means a extra hour of daylight, warmer weather, bbq season you get the drift. 

This year has been a particular tough yeah with an injury which has basically stopped me from doing every form of excercise without being in pain, but on the plus side I am off too the specialist tomorrow and hopefully be able to get my fitness back, it has been 9 months of agony, so I am hoping that after this next 6 weeks I will be able to get back into my golf, walking, running and maybe even get back into tennis, my thyroid is still being a pain too but I have increased the meds for that so that is still a work in progress, bring on feeling great for summer, and my 40th year

Exciting times are a coming  

  

Feeling fab

My gosh where is the time going, I have been meaning to carry on with my blog but life just keeps getting in the way.

I have finally found my dream job and although it's insanely busy, more so cause I'm still finding my feet. Coming in to the cable industry with no knowledge it's certainly makes me relise I have so much to learn, but I am so excited for it, I have the most understanding bosses and everyone is so happy to help me, it's hard to believe I have been there for a month already, so this part of my life is finally working which is great. 

I am now also starting to get back into my exercise as my foot is feeling better, even tried a bit of running today (might of been to soon,) but I'm loving getting home from my job early enough to put dinner on and then take my dog for a walk and although it's flippin cold it's great.

So it's all falling into place, I'm looking forward to my future in every way with my family, my job and the new me.

Exciting times are here and they are going to stay 😀

               

Time for an update

So it's been a wee while since I last blogged, have been a tad bit busy with the new job lots to learn, 

It's been amazing how so much can change in such a short time, and change for the better, when you think you have something that is ok it's not until that is taken away from you that you think it  can't get any better than that, but to be honest what I had wasn't that glam after all and something new gets shown to you that you relise. 

This week has been insane with training (so much so that my brain was fried last night and I was in bed at a ridiculous early time) I was also very lucky to have my manager down here training me this week, I have only been shown a small part of my job but my bosses are very happy with what I have learnt, funny thou I started this week knowing nothing about cables to thinking ok I think I know a little bit about cables only to be shown something else and feel like i know nothing about cables again, the boss turned around to me and said you aren't going to learn all this in a week and one day you will come in and it will make total sense,  so go home relax and forget about cables.  They really are looking after me in the fact that they are only showing me a few things at a time, I so,want to be doing everything but they know it's a lot to learn.mThis week has seen changes in the office that I was told have never been seen. I love the fact that after a week being at this job they already saying how the office changes are great and that they appreciate my opinion,

I really have been given a super opportunity and I'm super excited about the future, I know I'm allowed back to cause I got given a key (lol, small things I know) 

Tonight to finish off a top week, we had a family dinner for our niece for her birthday, I got the entertainment book and it has already paid for itself and some and we have only used  3 of the hundreds of vouchers 

Today I'm grateful for

Fantastic opportunities, believing and accepting 

  J

Busy but happy

Today was another great day, i had a full on medical exam with a drug and alcohol test, I am happy to say I passed everything, so hopefully tomorrow is going to be the  start of my new chapter, I am very excited with the challenge that I have coming, I am going to be doing something completely different and lots to learn, but that all happens next week. Funny how everything seems to be falling perfectly into place, and how I seem to have completed all that I have needed too, I have a couple days more of helping a friend then  will get to have a couple of days to myself then it will be the weekend and then it's all go.

To those people who wished me good luck and those of you who have asked how I got on today, thanks 😀, I know I have said it before but you have all helped me to relise that I am still me and you all helped me to keep my positive vibe still going when at times I felt hopeless

Today I am grateful for being healthy, and looking at my horizon and like what I see xo

             

Weekend of good

This weekend was a good weekend, I caught up with one of my very best/long time friends, she is like the sister that I never had, we try and catch up once a month but kids and life get in the way and sometimes it's 3 months down the track, and we are like really, but every time we are together it seems like just yesterday we saw each other and we pick up from where we left off,  there never seems to be awkward silences, if anything the time goes far too quick and it's time to leave, seeing this friend always makes my day/ week, and I can't wait to see her next time. 

 I had a well over due chat with another person (you know who you are)  who has been in my life for along time some things happened and I needed to get over it, it has taken me a few years but I finally feel we are getting back to the way we were before things happened, I am very lucky to have these and many more special people in my life, having lost my job 6 weeks ago I have really began to see the true colours of people and have found out who are the people that I want in my life, and who care for me and then there are  the people that I don't want to waste my time on funny how you open your eyes and some people really think that the world revolves around them and don't want to help people that actually need the help, and when these people are down just how much they try and bring you dow with them but the minute something good or lucky happens  to these people they then think that they are above everybody and that the world owes them again.

Today was a nice day with my wee family, the sun was shining and my future is looking bright.

Today I am greatful for forgiveness and having amazing people in my life.

 

           

It's looking up

After what has been a challenging, frustrating last few weeks things are finally starting to fall into place, I have enjoyed being able to go,to school and see my son in his various performances and being able to run both kids about, having a clean house, work out, and be able to go back to bed on these cold mornings, help out friends meet up with friends but I am excited about my next adventure, I started reading the secret again as I needed a boost and set my train of thought I certainly asked for something that I really wanted yesterday and although I wasn't expecting news for a few days, I have been offered a fantastic opportunity, and I should have a definite answer by mid next week.

I had a reading a few weeks back and was told 6 - 8 weeks and your life will be back on the right track and it certainly feels that way, I kept believing (albeit very hard at times) and it has happened, all I can say is never give up on your dreams, because they will become a reality, I am still dreaming of winning lotto so watch this space 

Today I am grateful for asking and receiving, and believing it is possible and never giving up on dreams 

            

Doing my best

Today was a day of  feeling like I am just managing  to stay afloat, and certain people making me feel like I am not doing anything in the hopes to find a new job, funny how you can have really supportive people in your life and then others that seem to like knocking you when you are down, to these people I say stuff you,  I am doing my best and when that job comes along I will be shoving it in your face and I bet you will all of a sudden be on my side again.

This morning was great we saw a few people we haven't seen for ages it was so nice to see them although it brief it was nice to see them seeing those people make you realise how lucky you really are to have people in your life, also another good thing today was bargain hunting clothes for my son and also got a bargain for my daughter.

Today I am grateful for bargains, staying a float and knowing trusting that this is only short term .

                

Frustrated

Ok so today was a day of complete frustration, I am with 3 agencies I have had one interview, I was also waiting to hear from 3 other jobs from these agencies, one rung me to say there has been a hold up of at least another week, the other one I had to ring as I hadn't heard anything, only to be told I wasn't experienced enough, still waiting on the 3rd one, then the interview I had this week I got the you made the last 2, but I'm sorry you haven't been successful, so I asked him why I missed out he said we knew the other applicant, so yah for me but it really is who you know and not what. I have 2 more interviews next week but to be honest it is very hard to stay positive, I have had some amazing people still sending me messages of stay positive and to you all I am so thankful, the interview in Thursday is at a place next to where my dad worked 20 years ago, so I am taking that as a sign.

So after watching my son play netball I came home and exercised my frustration out, but I was still pissed so the next thing was mow the lawn, stupid as it is winter but totally frustrated, so the final thing today was I decided to  attack some of the bushes in the garden best hour and a half ever, I would  loved to have carried on but I'm  not sure there would of been much bush left, it got dark and I had no room in the bins.

So another week of unemployment beckons but positive thoughts as I have 2 interviews next week and lotto is looking fantastic tomorrow

Today I'm grateful for friends checking on me and getting to rid some of my frustrations on the garden 

 

                        

Enjoying time

I am finding that trusting the journey is giving me so much more time to enjoy doing what I can not normally find time for, although I am feeling very positive that my new chapter is just around the corner, I am enjoying the fact that I can go and see my kids doing things in school time that I have been unable to do while working, I have enjoyed watching my son play his winter sports, I am enjoying he fact that I can also see how his dance is coming along with dancing like the starts for school, he is also running the school assembly tomorrow with four other kids but the fact that I can go and watch him is pretty cool, I am also enjoying the fact that I can do my exercise during the day, I can also get dinner ready nice and early, today we had parent teacher meetings for my daughter tonight and I am very proud of her with all the troubles that she has had this year and previous years it it is so so lovely to hear that she is doing well.

So with all this good stuff gong on I am feeling great, I have another couple of interviews next week, the interviews I have had although it's great to have the experience nothing has felt like it was right for me, so hear is hoping one of next weeks interviews brings me what I am spending all my energy on and a new job.  

Today I am grateful for time, patience and enjoying this precious time before I am back at work

      

Another great day

Today started with physio and she finally said I could do some exercise (now to control what I do) so that was a great start to the day, then I got to meet a friend for a coffee I always love meeting this friend as she makes me feels normal, you sometimes wonder if you are the only one that has issues with things not going the right way, but seeing her today was great, the best part about today was finally getting back into some exercise although it wasn't as full on as I like it felt great it's amazing how much it makes you feel better, 

I have now also,decided that it's time to get ready for my 40th next year, not that I am planning on having a party but I want to feel fab at 40, so healthy eating, drinking heaps of water and exercising is my aim, and I figure that the only thing missing now is the job but I know it's coming, so I'm going to say that this first 6 months of this year has been pretty crap, but I'm so excited for the next 6 months of this year.

I also want to say a big thank you to everyone who is sending me messages, texting me and generally caring about me and helping me if they hear if any jobs going, you have no idea how much it is appreciated.

So today I am grateful for

New opportunities and having fabulous people in my life 

     

Keeping positive

Today was a good day, nothing super crazy happened but just a good day, a certain feeling of exciting change is coming and by the end of this week I'm hoping for super news. 

It's been an interesting ride the last few weeks but I'm excited for the next ride, and where it is going to take me. It's funny how you think you life is just normal but it's not until you are telling complete strangers things that have gone on over the last few years that you relise it's not normal, and what we have gone thru would of broken many, then they say to you how do you do it, like I said to this person you do what you do and will continue to until you get what you want.

So I say bring on my new challenge and exciting times, I'm ready 

 

Today I'm grateful 

For opportunities and following my heart